The last few days went fairly well. I am still struggling with letting myself be a little hungry all the time until I'm used to it. You see, I'm used to feeling a tiny bit hungry and eating, which then triggers eating more, which leads to the viscous circle that has become my life. Now rational or not, I feel anxiety when that little hunger feeling hits and it is HARD!

I went to Walgreen's tonight which is a huge trigger for me. I am used to using that as a way to get out of the house at night then loading up on junk which I would partially eat and partially stash in my car for later. I really didn't think anything of it until I walked in the door. I made it through the store but was nearly in panic mode the whole time. I bought some things I didn't need that you can't eat got my hubbys scripts, and got out of dodge.

Though I feel really good about the last few day, I have a long way to go. I was good but not great. I was reduced to taking it a hour at a time more then once today and tomorrow I won't have work to distract me.

I'm still on the second step. Not quite feeling the possibility of God being able to remove this compulsion from me or feeling like I deserve that blessing quite yet. I am praying about it and thinking on it. I have made a commitment to Kathy, (the girl in the pic with me) to keep a food log and mail it to her at the end of the day, and Leann and I are doing situps/crunches everyday. I love my friends, what a beautiful support system God is giving me. Please keep praying for me and keeping me accountable. More later.